Hi everyone, first of all thank you for the on my last post where I explained that i’m having a difficult time with my social anxiety. ( previous post here ) In the post i said to try and help me clear my mind i was planning to go home to relax from the pressure there is to socialise that there is in uni. I know a lot of people struggle with winding down so i thought i do a post about what I did.
First of as soon as i wheeled through the door i got a hug from my mum and an insult from my little brother i was officially home, it was also just lovely to catch up see if everyone in the family is ok and then catch up on the pointless family gossip everyone has. After that my dad brought us a Chinese takeaway you have no idea how happy this made me i have just a simple sweet and sour chicken balls and chips but for someone who’s been eating mainly pasta at uni the flavoring and the fat was just food heaven. my family even said i looked like i had been in i’m a celeb i eat it so fast! This was one of the reasons i knew i could relax at home for one i don’t have to cook or wash up which is very hard to do and tiring because of my cerebral palsy but i also wont get judged for how i eat or if i have a hand spasm and drop some food on the floor.
Now that i had stuffed my face i went to do something i had been dying to do for weeks, listen to Nathan Sykes album unfinished business full blast with headphones on. I hadn’t been able to do this at uni because my laptop there doesent have a jack to plug in the headphones but i knew it would help cause music is a big distraction for me as it takes my mind of things and im huge fan of Nathans so i can just fan girl as well.
I spent the rest of my time carry on catching up with family playing rubbish but addictive apps and binging on gavin and stacy.
I wouldn’t say my time at home has completely cured the problem i was having cause i still haven’t left the flat since ive been back but i definitely feel less overwhelmed by my situation and like ill never go out again and a failure, Ive never really believed in self care but it turns out my favorite food family and favorite tv really can help.
If anyone relates to this or has an self care tips comment below 🙂