2018 Goals

 

2018

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Hi everyone long time no speaks I know, but I needed some time away from blogging as, to be honest with you I wasn’t enjoying it as much and the pressure I put on myself to do something my heart just wasn’t in was making me anxious and uncomfortable. However recently I have been feeling the urge to blog again and decided to not put pressure on myself to post every week or stick to certain themes. just post what I want when I want!

I say this and yet I still asked my twitter followers on courte20s what you wanted to read and I put down as an option 2018 goals simply because that’s what I saw everyone else in the blogging community doing, I only realised this when it got chosen and I had thought of what I was going to write thinking “you haven’t got any new year goals that was clever)   So to see how my years progressed and what goals I could create for this year I looked back on my 2017 goals post I spent the whole time reading it laughing at myself I hadn’t achieved one of my goals but to my surprise, I didn’t actually care.

It was then I came up with my new year’s goal: Do what I want not what those close to me want me to do, not what people around me are doing and now what society is telling me to do! 

I’m pretty proud of this light bulb moment because at the end of the day it’s my life when my time comes at the end of it ( sorry to be morbid ) I won’t have to answer to anyone else and neither will you.

So instead of goals that when you look back you won’t really care about, set goals that end with you being happy whatever that may mean.

I will try and post more often I do plan to but no promises.

As always thanks for reading and comment below what things are important to you to achieve this year.

Courtney

Do not define yourself by your mental health

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Hi again after over a month of not blogging as I’ve said before I love this and if I ever don’t blog for a long period of time its because of my social anxiety, which is slowly getting better after a bad month or two I might explain that in more in another post if you want me to but I’m fed up of being negative at the moment so instead I thought id share why I have decided to pluck up the courage to write this post and whats changed for me.

 

 

While I haven’t been blogging I’ve still been reading blogs from amazing people who struggle with mental health conditions but still continually post amazing and insightful post. I was always in awe of them everytime I read a post this at times made me feel guilty that I couldn’t be as strong as them to do this and then led to my anxiety getting worse and letting negative thoughts creep in such as ” yer it doesn’t matter that your not blogging cause no one likes you anyway so they won’t care or miss you” ( sharing that bit of negativity is for the purpose of positivity I promise)

This constant getting inspired by people and then comparing myself to people I couldn’t match up to or didn’t think I did was a rut I was getting myself into I wanted to be like these people but I just couldn’t.

But then I had a lady who was a representative of the #timetochange campaign come into my lecture in the mental health module of my course, she was introduced as a professional and not someone with a mental health condition who had used services herself. I heard all these amazing things she had done in her career, to be honest, its a career I could only dream of and then we were told details of her mental health conditions and the depth of how serious they were.

I was shocked, but i wasn’t shocked she was able to do this amazing job with a mental health condition I was shocked she chose to due to the nature of the parallels her mental health had with her job I can’t go into detail about what her job was but all I will say is that her colleagues also ended up being here care providers while during the times she was servilely unwell and then she would go back to work with them when she was better. I just sat there in shock that she was one brave enough to do that and not scared of stigma and two had the self-confidence that she was able to do the job with the confidence that she was still an equal to her colleagues. Questions about stigma and confidence in her abilities as a practitioner were brought up by my peers in the lecture and her replies just gave me a new outlook on my abilities both professionally and personally such as hobbies like blogging. She said:

” my mental health is part of me but its not all of me it also gives me a different outlook on the way I look at things which are a strength, it also helps me relate to people with mental health issues but I know that I can still treat them because everyone condition is different and I’m here today telling you all this to break the stigma so you can see that everyone with mental health is an individual and shouldn’t just be seen as their mental health”

This amazing lady made me realise that my blogs won’t be like the other amazing peoples in this community if I do blog and if I can’t blog when I’m ill that doesn’t mean I’m less brave them then cause I might have things in life that they can’t do while they are struggling with their mental health due to our individuality as people.

So lastly before I end this ramble I realise this post has been a bit jumpy that’s because I’ve had to miss out details and not to say how it affected my personal feeling for my fears of my abilities in my career and instead stick to how it helped with blogging because of privacy issues. but i hope i got the point across that if you have mental health issues or no someone who does don’t compare yourself to others don’t put yourself down don’t stigmatise yourself by seeing yourself as your mental health condition instead see yourself as an individual with a mental health condition who still has personality and invalid strengths and weaknesses and have confidence in yourself.

Thank you so much for reading I hope to post again soon!

Courtney