2018 Goals

 

2018

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Hi everyone long time no speaks I know, but I needed some time away from blogging as, to be honest with you I wasn’t enjoying it as much and the pressure I put on myself to do something my heart just wasn’t in was making me anxious and uncomfortable. However recently I have been feeling the urge to blog again and decided to not put pressure on myself to post every week or stick to certain themes. just post what I want when I want!

I say this and yet I still asked my twitter followers on courte20s what you wanted to read and I put down as an option 2018 goals simply because that’s what I saw everyone else in the blogging community doing, I only realised this when it got chosen and I had thought of what I was going to write thinking “you haven’t got any new year goals that was clever)   So to see how my years progressed and what goals I could create for this year I looked back on my 2017 goals post I spent the whole time reading it laughing at myself I hadn’t achieved one of my goals but to my surprise, I didn’t actually care.

It was then I came up with my new year’s goal: Do what I want not what those close to me want me to do, not what people around me are doing and now what society is telling me to do! 

I’m pretty proud of this light bulb moment because at the end of the day it’s my life when my time comes at the end of it ( sorry to be morbid ) I won’t have to answer to anyone else and neither will you.

So instead of goals that when you look back you won’t really care about, set goals that end with you being happy whatever that may mean.

I will try and post more often I do plan to but no promises.

As always thanks for reading and comment below what things are important to you to achieve this year.

Courtney

Winter Wheelchair Problems

Winter has ended *cheers* most people hate the winter its dark and cold but when your disabled and a wheelchair certain unique problems can present themselves. There are many but I’ve narrowed it down to my top 3 problems for wheelchair users in the winter:

1.Pain related symptoms get worse

Not everyone with a disability or in a wheelchair gets pain related symptoms but every disabled person I have spoken to does and they get worse during the winter aswell so id say this is a pretty safe generalization to make. For me personally I get painful spasms a lot when I’m cold so in the winter I basically hibernate I have friends that so come out the drink will take the pain away and granted on the night but for the following days when I’m so tight I’m struggling to move im hugely regretting going out no matter how good the night was but most of the time I still go cause you know FOMO.

2. Our hands get cold

This one is specifically wheelchair related but god do our wheels get cold every morning in the winter when I first touch them without fail I jump even though I know what it’s going to be like! And if someones around me at this point I occasionally go into to what looks like a toddler’s meltdown by saying to someone I’m with at the time “feel my wheels feel how cold they are *person gives strange look* FEEL THEM! ” always met by the response oh they are colder than I thought they’d be.

And for electronic wheelchair users, the cold hand problems still exist but only on our hand that we use to operate the driving stick which for me and my bad circulation results in one normalish looking hand and a purple hand, yer it’s not a pretty sight!

 

Snow= stuck inside

The whole of Britain has a panic when it snows but for wheelchair users, it is a panicking time and it pretty self-explanatory why we cant move because of a wheelchairs design. When I was a kid this was upsetting when everyone else was out playing now as an adult I see it as a good excuse to stay inside and get other people to do things for me.

Saying that though one of my best moment were had in the snow when I was 12 I went on a school trip to wales and was pulled up a mountain on a wheelchair that was designed like a mountain bike with wheelchair support it was pretty clever and one time I felt like nothing not even Winter weather could stop me.

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Do not define yourself by your mental health

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Hi again after over a month of not blogging as I’ve said before I love this and if I ever don’t blog for a long period of time its because of my social anxiety, which is slowly getting better after a bad month or two I might explain that in more in another post if you want me to but I’m fed up of being negative at the moment so instead I thought id share why I have decided to pluck up the courage to write this post and whats changed for me.

 

 

While I haven’t been blogging I’ve still been reading blogs from amazing people who struggle with mental health conditions but still continually post amazing and insightful post. I was always in awe of them everytime I read a post this at times made me feel guilty that I couldn’t be as strong as them to do this and then led to my anxiety getting worse and letting negative thoughts creep in such as ” yer it doesn’t matter that your not blogging cause no one likes you anyway so they won’t care or miss you” ( sharing that bit of negativity is for the purpose of positivity I promise)

This constant getting inspired by people and then comparing myself to people I couldn’t match up to or didn’t think I did was a rut I was getting myself into I wanted to be like these people but I just couldn’t.

But then I had a lady who was a representative of the #timetochange campaign come into my lecture in the mental health module of my course, she was introduced as a professional and not someone with a mental health condition who had used services herself. I heard all these amazing things she had done in her career, to be honest, its a career I could only dream of and then we were told details of her mental health conditions and the depth of how serious they were.

I was shocked, but i wasn’t shocked she was able to do this amazing job with a mental health condition I was shocked she chose to due to the nature of the parallels her mental health had with her job I can’t go into detail about what her job was but all I will say is that her colleagues also ended up being here care providers while during the times she was servilely unwell and then she would go back to work with them when she was better. I just sat there in shock that she was one brave enough to do that and not scared of stigma and two had the self-confidence that she was able to do the job with the confidence that she was still an equal to her colleagues. Questions about stigma and confidence in her abilities as a practitioner were brought up by my peers in the lecture and her replies just gave me a new outlook on my abilities both professionally and personally such as hobbies like blogging. She said:

” my mental health is part of me but its not all of me it also gives me a different outlook on the way I look at things which are a strength, it also helps me relate to people with mental health issues but I know that I can still treat them because everyone condition is different and I’m here today telling you all this to break the stigma so you can see that everyone with mental health is an individual and shouldn’t just be seen as their mental health”

This amazing lady made me realise that my blogs won’t be like the other amazing peoples in this community if I do blog and if I can’t blog when I’m ill that doesn’t mean I’m less brave them then cause I might have things in life that they can’t do while they are struggling with their mental health due to our individuality as people.

So lastly before I end this ramble I realise this post has been a bit jumpy that’s because I’ve had to miss out details and not to say how it affected my personal feeling for my fears of my abilities in my career and instead stick to how it helped with blogging because of privacy issues. but i hope i got the point across that if you have mental health issues or no someone who does don’t compare yourself to others don’t put yourself down don’t stigmatise yourself by seeing yourself as your mental health condition instead see yourself as an individual with a mental health condition who still has personality and invalid strengths and weaknesses and have confidence in yourself.

Thank you so much for reading I hope to post again soon!

Courtney

 

2017 Goals

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Personal goals

  • Stop letting people walk all over me!- Relationships whatever the nature of them aren’t perfect and in 2016 I found out just how complicated they can be. I discovered through this that people have a knack of playing on my vulnerabilities and anxiety by twisting things and making me over think what happened so I just say I was in the wrong and sorry to get rid of my anxiety. So in 2017 I’m going try and not panic when conflict happens take a step back and analyses what is actually happening hopefully that we ween out negative people in my life.
  • Do my physio program once a week- I have a physio program to strengthen my muscles and help with my cerebral palsy I have not been doing it but I’ve started to notice I get tired a lot quicker when trying to stand so I’m going to start it again. Once a week is going to be a challenge, though.
  •   Watch what I eat- I don’t eat badly I just don’t exactly have a balanced diet due to student life I tend to skip meals and eat the same meals consistently which aren’t the healthiest. so I’m forced to see what I’m eating I’m going to start posting what I eat Wednesday, but please don’t expect fanciness it’s a students diet.

Academic goals

  • Don’t leave everything to the last minute- pretty self-explanatory but its something I regret doing last semester.
  • Do more outside reading on my subject- I like reading about my subject I don’t know why I only read the bare minimum last year!
  • Don’t be too anxious to ask for help when I need it- I was struggling with an essay last year was too anxious to say anything, thought id be thought of as stupid or taking up someone’s time if I voiced now I found out a lot of people struggled and ask for help leaving me to fail and them to pass. I’d like to say I’ve learned my lesson but the thought of asking for help still makes me anxious.

Blog goals

  • Gain more followers- I’m still a relatively new blogger and haven’t really put as much effort into this as I want to in 2017. I hate saying numbers cause I feel too ambitious or cocky but I don’t think ill get to this amount its just my goal. I would like to have 300 blog followers ( including email subscribers+ Bloglovin) and 4500 twitter followers.
  • Post 2 times a week- I’ve been really inconsistent with my posting which is because I was adjusting to being in uni but hopefully ill be able to manage my time better and post more cause I do love it and ideally, i would like to post 3 times but I won’t get too ambitious
  • .Learn how to comment on blogs that use blogger- This one is really annoying me I love interacting with other blogs and reading their post. But whenever I go to comment on blogs that use blogger it says something about my open ID credentials not being correct when I know I’m using the correct web address. there must be a way to sort this out i will find out in 2017.

Wishing you all a productive 2017 where all your goals are met. Please comment below and tell me what yours are so we can motivate each other.